[30-Day Letter Challenge] Day 12: The Person You Hate The Most / Caused You A Lot Of Pain

4 Oct

Hi.

Well, I would like to say, first and foremost, thank you.

My 3-year-ago self would not probably, in her wildest dreams, say this to you.

In the past 3 years, I hated you. Seriously. I admit, though, that some of that hate is probably envy and jealousy. I admit, you’re beautiful, you’re good at dancing, you’re friendly, and most of all, he likes you.

I felt so insecure. Because honestly, I have a really low self-esteem. I think I’m ugly and fat. The only edges I have against you are my brains, and my attitude.

I hated you, initially, because he likes you. But I found out, just a year ago, that you just led him on.

What hurts is not that he likes you. What hurts the most is you knew he likes you, and you led him on. Worse, if you didn’t come into the picture, we could have been.

So let me get this straight. You did not cause all the hurt I’m feeling because of him, because, of course, part of it was caused by himself, and other girls that were linked to him. But, girl, I would like to point out that you first spoiled my first love.

Now, why did I say thanks to you?

Because if you did not come into the picture, we would have been a couple.

If we were a couple, we would still be a couple until now.

If we were a couple until now, I would not have realized a guy that was a lot better than him.

And since it happened the other way around, thank you. Thank you for spoiling my first love, so I could realize a better love than I initially would die for. Thank you.

Now, I don’t feel any hate towards you anymore. I hope you are happy with your life now, with your boyfriend. And I pray that God will guide you through the crisis that you and your family is going through right now.

God Bless you.

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