[30-Day Letter Challenge] Day 16: Someone That’s Not In Your State/Country

1 Nov

OYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! Sobrang miss na kita. Huhubells.

To be honest, love-hate talaga nararamdaman ko sa’yo. Fluctuating.

Hate, kasi naman, naaalala ko yung mga ginawa mo sa mga kaibigan ko, pero since you’re already okay with them, who am I to hate you, diba? :))

Love, kasi… self-explanatory.

Well, right now, kinukumbinsi ko yung sarili ko na nag-move on na ako sa’yo bago pa man tayo g-um-raduate, kasi na-shift ulit yung attention ko nun.

Pero ewan ko ba sa cardiac, limbic, at nervous system ko.

Pag hindi kita kausap, I see you as my brother, my friend, my family.

Pero pag nakakausap kita, I don’t know what’s wrong, tachycardia and hypothermia ang nangyayari sa akin.

Siguro nagkakaganito kasi wala akong ginawa tungkol dun.

I know, suki ako ng friendzone mo.

I was there all along, pero gets, I was always a friend. Na nasa tabi mo, for that matter.

I didn’t really do anything about it, like how I “closed” my feelings for Ray.

Yung kay Ray kasi madali lang, kasi hindi naman kami close, and so we don’t have anything to maintain despite the feelings I had for him.

Eh yung sayo? What will happen if I admit it? What will happen if I “closed” it? Our friendship might even be on the line.

So I guess, I’ll just have to deal with this on my own.

Anyway, tuwing may interaction lang naman tayo nagkakaganito eh.

Since you’re far away naman, it will be a little bit easier.

But do remember that I’ll never ever forget you as a friend.

For during those times, during Fourth Year High School, even without you knowing, I know I was happy with you.

And until the time you come back to the Philippines, I hope you don’t forget me.

PS. Yung regalo ko para sa debut ko. 😛

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